I received an early SMS in the office this morning.
7.50am: Today Ismail is early, still managed to catch you turning left into buona vista.
7.50am: Meaning?
7.53am: If he is not late, we are just on time lor.
7.55am: Chey he has been late nowadays. Actually we’re early due to sch hols.
8.02am: Think yday got news that next year child care subsidy got increase, but dunno if only for low income families.
8.09am: For low income families.
8.10am: Have you been reading my blog? It’s strange that you’re sms-ing me today. And so frequent.
8.12am: Read on Friday night already when burning cds. Frequent meh? You don’t like?
8.12am: I like, but it’s just strange.
The exchange stopped here (at the publication time of this entry).
I appreciate that he made an effort to keep in touch after reading my post. It just feels weird, maybe because it’s a reaction, not a spontaneous action.
It’s only Monday morning......
Monday, November 24, 2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Sappy Me
I was driving into the building carpark this morning when I overheard on the radio a husband dedicating a song to his wife for their 2nd wedding anniversary. This old love evergreen kept me listening to the end.
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
If I had to live without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh, so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you.
Chorus 1
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You oughta know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love.
Chorus 2
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead the way for us like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should neeed me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are.
So come with me and share this view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now, touch me now
I don't want to live without you.
Cheesy song, some may say.
If you're listening to this song when you're just starting a new chapter in your lives together, romantic and inspiring I would say. Love will lead the way.......*hurhur*
Fast forward a couple of years down the road, saddled with more and multiple roles, love....'what's love? Can eat or not?' The cynic in me asks.
If husbands or longtime bf/fiances could still romance us like they did during the infant stages of the love relationship, we'll willingly do anything for you sans the naggings and complaints.
So don't blame me for ignoring you when you come home late from work. I didn't hear from you the whole day.
Monday, November 10, 2008
Back to work on Monday
Today's the start of a new work week. Again.
We had an activity-filled weekend. BBQ at Pasir Ris Park on Saturday and birthday picnic at Botanic Gardens on Sunday. Weekends are never boring with Eunice.
Come Mondays, it's back to the monotony of work, pick kid, settle kid and hit the sack. Oh, and the perpetual question of 'what time will he finish work?'.
I'm taking half-day leave this afternoon. Power supply would be cut off this afternoon at Eunice's centre. I'm bringing her home for her nap. When I told ZM about it and asked if he could take leave to fetch her, his reply was 'I can't take leave. You have so many days of annual leave. You can take.'
HELLO.....I'm employed just like you. I may have 10 days of annual leave for this year, but that doesn't mean that I can 'suka suka' apply leave. Somemore I am attending seminars this Tuesday and Thursday, meaning I won't be able to do much labwork this week. When the teachers informed me that the power supply would be cut off, my first thought was, 'Come on, it's only 2 hours, I'm sure it's no problem. Furthermore I can't be applying for leave every other week. It leaves a bad impression on my timesheet.'
My heart changed and softened as I patted and watch Eunice fall asleep. She's more important than my work. Plus, I will get to spend more time with her. If I don't make sure she's comfortable, who will?
He told me this morning he would be able to knock off at 6.30pm this evening. I'm not even taking his word for it. I've given up any hope on him knocking off on the dot at 5.30pm on all days.
Last week, I sms-ed to him I feel like we're more like team members, rather than a married couple. Working together to get the chores done, rest for the night and the next workday repeats itself again.
I've been wondering if I've studied, worked and given much for a life like this. Is my life goal working for and towards weekends spent with family as long as I have a steady income to pay for the home and car, enough activities to fill a weekend, etc?
At the bottom of all these, I feel emotional emptiness and discontentment. It's sad if Eunice is the only cord that binds us together.
We had an activity-filled weekend. BBQ at Pasir Ris Park on Saturday and birthday picnic at Botanic Gardens on Sunday. Weekends are never boring with Eunice.
Come Mondays, it's back to the monotony of work, pick kid, settle kid and hit the sack. Oh, and the perpetual question of 'what time will he finish work?'.
I'm taking half-day leave this afternoon. Power supply would be cut off this afternoon at Eunice's centre. I'm bringing her home for her nap. When I told ZM about it and asked if he could take leave to fetch her, his reply was 'I can't take leave. You have so many days of annual leave. You can take.'
HELLO.....I'm employed just like you. I may have 10 days of annual leave for this year, but that doesn't mean that I can 'suka suka' apply leave. Somemore I am attending seminars this Tuesday and Thursday, meaning I won't be able to do much labwork this week. When the teachers informed me that the power supply would be cut off, my first thought was, 'Come on, it's only 2 hours, I'm sure it's no problem. Furthermore I can't be applying for leave every other week. It leaves a bad impression on my timesheet.'
My heart changed and softened as I patted and watch Eunice fall asleep. She's more important than my work. Plus, I will get to spend more time with her. If I don't make sure she's comfortable, who will?
He told me this morning he would be able to knock off at 6.30pm this evening. I'm not even taking his word for it. I've given up any hope on him knocking off on the dot at 5.30pm on all days.
Last week, I sms-ed to him I feel like we're more like team members, rather than a married couple. Working together to get the chores done, rest for the night and the next workday repeats itself again.
I've been wondering if I've studied, worked and given much for a life like this. Is my life goal working for and towards weekends spent with family as long as I have a steady income to pay for the home and car, enough activities to fill a weekend, etc?
At the bottom of all these, I feel emotional emptiness and discontentment. It's sad if Eunice is the only cord that binds us together.
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