Black Friday

This is the place I come to to share more personal thoughts. So,if you are reading my blog, either you are someone whom I trust and I know I won't be judged or you stumbled upon my blog through blog links.

As I am sitting at the coffeeshop waiting for my turn to see doc, my heart is heavy, very heavy. No one to talk to. So the only way to keep my mind from wandering is to blog.

Last Thursday, on the 15th day of CNY, I got the worst shock when I walked into the path of a female dead body. At first, it didn't occur to me that it was a human being. Only on closer inspection, then did I realized the severely distorted mess belonged to a lady. I will not describe the gory details here. But that image haunted me - up till now.

I didn't dare to be at home alone, even in the daytime. At night, I need to turn on all lights before I step into a room. Needed company when I showered too. Even my heart beat fast when I was home alone on MC. Bought enough rations to last me for the duration of sick leave, so that I did not have to step out of home to get lunch. While walking past that spot, I would ask ZM to walk beside me to block off the sight. It was that horrifying and haunting.

I have been on sick leave for more than a week - caused by the wretched mumps virus - the next day after that incident. The swelling threatened to grow even after one week's rest and was only doused by cooling drink bought at Chinese medicinal hall. I had delayed dousing myself with Chinese meds for certain reason. I don't deny I was expecting a miracle to happen. But sadly, it didn't as I got the answer early this morning. The good out of it is that I can finally see my left jawline again and return to work next week.

AT the heart of the dumps, I got a call from my bro yesterday that he's infected with mumps too. Of course, fingers point to me. We had a huge argument over the phone. I might be the one, not the one. You may ask why was he so heated up? Mumps only what.

His wife should be due next week. They are electing c-sect.

I was to blame? Shouldn't have attended Ah Ma's birthday dinner last Saturday? But why so 'suay'? The others were not infected but him. The two who exchange kisses and sleep next to me are fine.

What's done cannot be undone. I just pray that mother and child will be protected from this darn virus and that my brother will recover quick enough to accompany his wife through the labour and delivery of their first child.

Through all these, I'm very thankful for my strong pillar of strength who stood by me. He sent the girl to CC and knocked off on the dot to fetch her, settled her and allowed me a good rest. Listened patiently to my rants, gently tried to let me see things from a different perspective.

Grateful to Nat Fang who SMS-Ed me almost every day to find out how I'm doing, offered encouraging words and an alternative female perspective.

And to my little E who never fails to cheer me up, even by just sitting next to me with our arms locked, watching 'A Tale of Two Cities' together.

Sudden thought

Too private to share on FB...

You can't choose your parents, but you still can choose your inlaws.