Please get well soon!

Boss is still running high fever. I hope he recovers and bounces back soon. Years ago, he had a 'might-be-ok' optimism. I don't see that anymore these days.

These few days, I had flashes of scenes from the past 9 years working here and with my boss. I remember during my second interview, I walked into a room with at least 8 men dressed in dark suits, ready to interrogate me. Just after I went down the building, HR called and I was offered the position amongst many applicants.

He was the one who first taught me ELISA and FACS. He approved my US shopping trips, oops I mean business trips. He didn't utter any tinge of unhappiness when I had to take urgent childcare leave few days in a row or when I was on MC for a week. I apologised due to my absence at work that my presentation was postponed again and again. But he asked me to take care of my health first. He tried to raise my profile to the company shareholders by asking me to present at the board level meeting. He said I could fail 1000 times and there were no deadlines.

I used to take company retreats for granted. I will miss it, even though he rushed off early on Sunday morning to play golf.

No wonder I find it difficult to leave him. 6 years primary school, 4 years secondary school, 2 years JC, 3 years uni, 2 years first job, 2 years postgrad and 4 months second job. 9 years in third job, no wonder I am so sentimental, especially to a kind boss.

Another devastating blow is coming his way. Heard that another colleague was offered in a new opening today.

Letter Day

I know I should be looking forward to the opening of a new door and be thankful for this opportunity to a career switch.

When people serve their notice period, they can't wait for the last day of work. Now, I would linger around my table for a while after knock off time.

Handed over the official letter to boss today. He took in a deep breath and sighed. I must have disappointed him. I wouldn't be where I am today without him.

I'm not sure if he is very affected by the recent terminations or due to fact he was running a fever today, he looked really downcast. My heart really goes out to him and it cuts through like a knife.

The least I could do was to buy a cup of starfruit juice for him. Since I'm leaving soon, no one could say I was curry-favoring. I pasted a note on his table. Was told by my spy that he gave a touched smile when he saw the drink. I hope the drink relieved the heatiness.

I chose the wrong day to hand in the letter la.

Emo Elmo

Today I made -possibly- one of the most painful and difficult decisions in my life. He would be the best boss I would have in my working life.

It's like a breakup. I 'love' Job, but I see no future with him. So it's better that we part now - 长痛不如短痛. But it's not easy saying goodbye after 9 years of relationship.

Last night, my fav radio channel aired a Westlife song and that was my 'breakup song' (with ZM) 11 years ago. Haha, you might think 'boyband??', that's so cheesy. Somehow, the lyrics and rhythm just expressed my emotions. I didn't let ZM go then. I digress....so anyways... listening to the song again was enough to turn on the waterworks as this time, I had to let Job go.

If I Let You Go
Day after day
Time pass away
And I just can´t get you off my mind
Nobody knows ...
I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can´t find
The courage to show ...
To letting you know ...
I´ve never felt so much love before
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

CHORUS:
But if I let you go
I will never know
What my life would be
Holding you close to me
Will I ever see
You smiling back at me
How will I know?
If I let you go ...

Night after night I hear myself sayin´
Why can´t this feeling just fade away?
There´s no one like you ...
You speak to my heart...
It´s such a shame we´re worlds apart ...
I´m too shuy to ask ...
I´m too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I´m thinking about
Taking the easy way out ...

CHORUS
Once again I´m thinking about ....
Taking the easy way out ....